The New Year???...hmm...bored of it

Boredom is getting the better of me...drivin me into depression mode..causing sleepless nights..thinking about what could have been...what should have been..what will be...n the worst part..comfort food seems to be tasteless and days seem to be dull...

News after news it keeps on getting worst...not only for me...but for ppl around me...i cant stop but to think about..ppl that are not suppose to matter anymore...events that altered the course of my life...materialistic things that should not have an monetary...or sentimental value..yet..that's all i can think about...

the biggest fear i had since i was a kid...is actually being alone...as in really alone..and now...i am...or am i??..maybe wats in front of me this all this time..are the ppl that i needed the most...yeah i know its diff...i know it is...maybe its because i cant take the fact that things are changing not for the better...or izit because...things that i thought i would have ...or ppl that i would thought i would be with...

Things or ppl are bound to let u dwn...tats wat i told myself...coz..so far...that's true..and without realizing it..i let ppl dwn too..so know m thinking...wat am i..who am i...wat have i done...do i mean sumthin...its kinda freaky wen u think about it...

Ppl change...n the worst part..for a reason that they dont even know..we'll always here...be yourself...that's ure true identity...not...then why change...izit to change to be accepted...or izit to chamge to make ureself happy..or izit to change for sacrifice??...or even for love...wat do u mean be yourself wen everyday..evrybody wants to be somebody...u gotta do this..u gotta do that...u gotta do it this way..or that way...why???....

These days...i do know why i feel this way...i do know how to get out of it..but i dont know why am i stuck???...maybe i do know...i hate this part right here..
Life as it is..as we all know it..its full of surprises..nothing is for sure....and know one will truly be happy...


Well..thats all for now dear reader...more to come soon..have a rockin merry new year.. -peace out-