Sum1 i misss so much.....i luv her...does she still love me ???

For the past few weeks...i've been missin her so much...nearly everythin i do...pretty much reminds me of her...i miss the times when she took care of me wen i was sick n feelin down...n the past 2 1/2 weeks wen i was sick...i was oso kinda depress....aaarrrrggghhh....wenevr i put on my playlist or listen to the radio..its either our favourite songs are playin....or songs that reminds me of her...

I no its been like.... 3 1/2 mnths....but....well...i still...really...really...really do love her...i cant stop thinkin about....i just cant get over her...n that actually makes me feel happy...n sad...happy that wenevr i think bout her...i do smile...sad that she aint goin to come back to me...or is she??..i don't no...at times i tell myself...she has moved on...found sum1....definitely...coz...i dun get a fon call..or an sms...but then wenever we c eachother...its just like oldtimes...but then i tell myself...this sounds like an off/on or just for kicks relationship...which i dont want at all...actually...i want wat was...which is the long term planning...where are we goin to live wen we grow old...thats wat i want...not call u wen i call u..or...c u nxt mnth kinda thingy..

Or izit wise not to contact her at all...at the same time...i want to...n i want her to call me..all the time...i cant be mad or jealous wen she has sum1 else to be wit..which i think she does...coz if she dosent...she would have kept her promises...but then again...i cant be mad or upset...i dont no whether she feels the same way about me...i hope she does...if she dosent...wat can i do...loads of ppl have been tellin me...whether they are family members or frens...just get over it...move on...then there are who tells me to give it time...u nvr no...coz u 2 love eachother...from their point of view...

So...i can say m on the fence...here's a song that kinda explains things...

You say you gotta go and find yourself
You say that you're becoming someone else
Don't recognize the face in the mirror
Looking back at you

You say you're leavin
As you look away
I know theres really nothin left to say
Just know i'm here
Whenever you need me
I'll wait for you

So i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me

Take your time i wont go anywhere
Picture you with the wind in your hair
I'll keep your things right where you left them
I'll be here for you

Oh and i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me

And i hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you come back to me

I can't get close if your not there
I can't get inside if theres no soul to bear
I can't fix you i can't save you
Its something you have to do

So i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me
Come back to me
So i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me

And i hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you come back to me

When you find you come back to me
When you find you come back to me
When you find you come back to me



More to come..ciao